Betrayal

As I sit here contemplating, my life as it was before

I wonder why I’m still here now, didn’t walk right out the door

The words you wrote were so sweet but they weren’t meant for me

Words that tore my world apart that I wasn’t meant to see

At first I was so angry and then I was so sad

Betrayal’s like a knife you see, cutting things I thought I had

You said that it was nothing, but you made a fool of me

Twas all about your ego, now in hindsight this I see

There is no doubt I love you, though damaged it may be

But my heart is locked away again, you no longer have the key

I know you’ve tried to fix it but trust is dead and gone

You thought you were being clever but you only earned my scorn

Our life it was not easy but I was always there for you

Cheering through every challenge, showing interest in all you’d do

I laughed when your jokes were corny, urged you on when things got tough

How did we get to that place where you hurt me oh so much

Forgiveness isn’t easy, I do it every day

I’m conscious I’m not perfect and I know I have to stay

But lately I’ve been thinking that time is running out

How do I live my life this way consistently in doubt

You’re so good at pretending, I’m not sure just who is who

Did I ever know you, was any of this life true

You’re gentle and seem loving, considerate I see

But I guess I now don’t know you see if it’s only done for me

©CBG 2010