Stand up and Fight

My heart is thumping as I face the truth

Made many mistakes when I was a youth

Never learned patience, no time for that

Missed many lessons, ain’t that a fact

Survival was it, stay out of my way

Shore up defenses, make things look okay

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

Mistakes I have made, self-involved to be true

Often missed on the obvious, never heard, “I love you”

Didn’t think I was loveable, thought all they would leave

Easier to build walls, than to wait and receive

Wish someone had told me, run to and not from

Slow down, yes you’re worthy, slow down love will come

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

Past hurts are for growing, I don’t have to bleed

I’ll listen to you, I’ll hear what you need

I’ll strive to remember that you have wounds too

Give space when you need it, know that I love you

I’ll reflect on the good, even when you do wrong

Keep memories precious and try to be strong

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

Would like to erase some things that I’ve done

Thought first and not acted, feared that you were gone

I hope that you know I mean well, this is true

You opened that door and I walked right on through

Wish I’d shown you my passion, when I had the time

Now I fear you ignore me, crossed over a line

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

I’ll trust that the silence doesn’t mean you don’t care

I’ll trust that you’re listening, though my mind fills with fear
Hope that you’ll respect me, though I let go of pride

I’ve laid myself open, please don’t stay outside

Being friends more important than anything, true?

But the friendship needs stroking, so I say I love you.

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

~ ~© CBG 2009