And so, I dance

So much I’ve learned the last few years
How little I know, how powerful are fears

Catch, inhale, exhale, carry
Duck, lean, thrust, now parry

And so, I dance.

She’s always smiling, her life seems such fun
She has it together, must ask how it’s done

Catch, inhale, exhale, carry
Duck, lean, thrust, now parry

And so, I dance.

The numb looks good, sometimes it’s true
That place of nothing, lie still, feel blue

Catch, inhale, exhale, carry
Duck, lean, thrust, now parry

And so, I dance.

I’m doing the best that I can by us all
At times I do stumble, some wait for my fall

Inhale, catch, exhale, carry
Duck, lean, thrust, now parry

And so, I dance.

I lose focus, refocus, give myself a good shake
Where there's life, there's hope, I will bend but not break

Inhale, catch, exhale, carry
Duck, lean, thrust, now parry

And so, I dance.

Rain On

If your love were raindrops I’d be wishing for a storm

I’d stand without shelter, let it bathe my naked form

To be loved with wild abandon is a long-held fantasy

Come rain on me my darling with love meant just for me

Touch like raindrops littered with sunshine, a playful red wine

Love with passion and devotion, with sweet kisses; so divine

To be loved without a reason yet another fantasy

Rain on, rain on my darling with love meant just for me

© CBG 2011

Uninhibited

Stars twinkling coyly in the inky skies
Reggae music pulsing as I close my eyes
Waves surge relentlessly against my feet
He croons ever so softly, we seek out a seat

Hard chair, soft hands, no fear, no plans
Salty air, sweet kiss, not a care - I got this
Temperatures rising, and it’s not from the sun
We go with the moment, I may come undone

What ifs and what fors, they all disappear
I receive freely, he gives without fear
The world melts away as we reach towards bliss
Hands clasp, eyes meet for that final sweet kiss

~~© CBG 2009

Stand up and Fight

My heart is thumping as I face the truth

Made many mistakes when I was a youth

Never learned patience, no time for that

Missed many lessons, ain’t that a fact

Survival was it, stay out of my way

Shore up defenses, make things look okay

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

Mistakes I have made, self-involved to be true

Often missed on the obvious, never heard, “I love you”

Didn’t think I was loveable, thought all they would leave

Easier to build walls, than to wait and receive

Wish someone had told me, run to and not from

Slow down, yes you’re worthy, slow down love will come

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

Past hurts are for growing, I don’t have to bleed

I’ll listen to you, I’ll hear what you need

I’ll strive to remember that you have wounds too

Give space when you need it, know that I love you

I’ll reflect on the good, even when you do wrong

Keep memories precious and try to be strong

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

Would like to erase some things that I’ve done

Thought first and not acted, feared that you were gone

I hope that you know I mean well, this is true

You opened that door and I walked right on through

Wish I’d shown you my passion, when I had the time

Now I fear you ignore me, crossed over a line

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

I’ll trust that the silence doesn’t mean you don’t care

I’ll trust that you’re listening, though my mind fills with fear
Hope that you’ll respect me, though I let go of pride

I’ve laid myself open, please don’t stay outside

Being friends more important than anything, true?

But the friendship needs stroking, so I say I love you.

Won’t run anymore

Gonna stand up and fight

Feet firm to the floor

Push back with my might

~ ~© CBG 2009



The Storm

There’s a storm brewing deep inside me and it comes right from my core

Do I dare to let it out right now, are you ready to handle more
For a long time I’ve held onto things, even when it really mattered
Tried so hard not to hurt you that it’s left me feeling shattered

I want to dance, be my Latin lover
Sing Karaoke in a bar
Make love in different places
Even the back seat of a car
I want to kiss you for an hour

Take you home and make you wait

I want to dance, be my Latin lover

Learn to salsa, it’s not too late

There’s a storm brewing deep inside of me and it comes right from my core

It threatens to uncover things on which I closed the door

Shall I take the chance and let it out and trust that you’ll still care

These things hold who I really am, will you love me still my dear

I want to dance, be my Latin lover

Sing Karaoke in a bar

Make love in different places

Even the back seat of a car

I want to kiss you for an hour

Take you home and make you wait

I want to dance, be my Latin lover

We’re still young, open up the gate

There’s a storm brewing deep inside of me and it comes right from my core

There’s a storm brewing deep inside of me, cannot take it anymore

Shedding all the chains that bind and I’m picking up the pace

Come see me if you’re certain that you’re ready for the race

I want to dance, be my Latin lover

Sing Karaoke in a bar

Make love in different places

Even the back seat of a car

I want to kiss you for an hour

Take you home and make you wait

I want to dance, be my Latin lover

If you’re ready, be my date

~~© CBG 2009

Hmmn...

When the pain from self-protection outweighs that which is caused by taking a risk;   jump, fly, believe...

Reflection

Reflection

Your voice echoes over and over in my mind
My heart reaches for another day another time
I remember you said, in that very special way
I’m crazy about you, man how it made my day

Nervous and tingly, I get when you call
Your arms like love is the best place to fall
The flutter in my belly and the pounding of my heart
Makes me feel so alive, as it has from the start

Your arms, when I’m with you, make me feel so secure
They make me feel wanted, they make me oh so sure
That all you do has value, no matter how big or small
Your hand right there on mine or an unplanned telephone call

You’re my waking thought, you’re my lullaby
I wonder how you do that and ask myself why
Will it always be like this, I just can’t help but think
If my life is a desert, then know you are my drink

Seize The Moment

If in life you had a Do Over, what actions would you repeat?

Are there words that you’d be sure to say or people you’d be sure to meet?

If in life you had a Do Over, what things would you repent?

Are there things you would refuse to do; tears you’d be sure were never spent?

If in life you had a Do Over, would you change the path you followed?

What things would you’ve fought to keep, how would you plan tomorrow?

If this moment is what matters most, perhaps you’ve found that power,

Create your happy memories now; every minute, every hour.

© CBG 2010

Betrayal

As I sit here contemplating, my life as it was before

I wonder why I’m still here now, didn’t walk right out the door

The words you wrote were so sweet but they weren’t meant for me

Words that tore my world apart that I wasn’t meant to see

At first I was so angry and then I was so sad

Betrayal’s like a knife you see, cutting things I thought I had

You said that it was nothing, but you made a fool of me

Twas all about your ego, now in hindsight this I see

There is no doubt I love you, though damaged it may be

But my heart is locked away again, you no longer have the key

I know you’ve tried to fix it but trust is dead and gone

You thought you were being clever but you only earned my scorn

Our life it was not easy but I was always there for you

Cheering through every challenge, showing interest in all you’d do

I laughed when your jokes were corny, urged you on when things got tough

How did we get to that place where you hurt me oh so much

Forgiveness isn’t easy, I do it every day

I’m conscious I’m not perfect and I know I have to stay

But lately I’ve been thinking that time is running out

How do I live my life this way consistently in doubt

You’re so good at pretending, I’m not sure just who is who

Did I ever know you, was any of this life true

You’re gentle and seem loving, considerate I see

But I guess I now don’t know you see if it’s only done for me

©CBG 2010

Contrarily...

Sometimes I walk with a heavy heart

Seeking light that I know is there

In life every moment’s a brand new start

But sometimes it seems too much to bear

I pace in my head like a cat in a cage

A cage that I helped to build

I lie to myself that it’s only a stage

Truth is, it has long gone downhill

My eyes fill with tears at the drop of a hat

My belly often tight with fear

Sometimes I struggle to deal with my life

With a heart that is filled, so filled with despair

A smile on my face though I’m dying inside

I strive to reclaim my strength

Longing for depth and so sick of lies

Fighting thoughts that say I should jet

I’m needed I know, I cannot give in

I must focus on that which is good

Build on successes, seek strength that’s within

But admit this is more than a mood

I will find a way, I don’t have a choice

To leave is just not an option

Finish the job, so my kids have a voice

Some day they will know my devotion

CBG ©